lesson 101

The worst thing about having a job is having one that takes all the sanity in you. I'm talking about the kind of job some people would consider better than other jobs available for grab until they experience it themselves; I'm talking about the kind of job I have.

To be quite honest, being a call center whore (Technical Support Representative) isn't the hardest job there is. It isn't hard at all in the first place. But it isn't something I love doing. Imagine, I have been in this job for more than a year. It's like committing suicide, I mean being in this job this long, except that it doesn't kill me, literally. It's killing me in a different way; in a way I'd rather not go through, if I really have a choice. So why stick with this job, right? Well, what else can I have? I can't choose now. There are no choices available anyway. In a country such as ours, one needs to have a college degree for him/her to get a job he/she really wants. And just as fucked as life can be, sometimes, one, even with a college diploma, end up working in fast food chains and call centers. I don't have anything against these people though (hey, I'm one of them.) If they're happy with what they are doing, I'm happy for them. It's just that I think they deserve something better.

I may be earning 'enough'; I may be able to provide for my family and buy things for myself, but I'm losing a part of me. A big part of me. In times like this, I have realized that money isn't really everything; Happiness and contentment are. And being able to still have respect to your own self isn't something money can buy.

So if you happen to read this, try to do things that makes you happy. I don't mean things that you 'think' can make you happy, okay? If you really have to find a high paying job, then do it. Just don't turn yourself back from that very thing that keeps you complete, and that which makes you YOU.