a true love story

Just done watching Brokeback Mountain on the net. Twice. And all I can say is, omg! I sure have seen a lot of good movies but this one really knocked me off. God, I couldn't believe how beautiful it is.

When it first came out, I promised myself I would watch it. And i can't remember what really happened, why I wasn't able to catch it then. But hell to that!

Good thing I was able to see it today. Twice. This movie is one of the best movies I've ever seen in my entire life. And you know what, I think it's the best. Yeah, it took the top spot on my list. And as i'm typing this, I am having a hard time thinking of the right word to describe the movie. It's too beautiful that words would not be able to describe it's beauty.

I know that it's a bit controversial, the movie, especially to those who are not really used to this kind of topic. But it's real. It's just that we, most often than not, refuse to see the truth. Is it because of fear, or us, just being judgmental, I don't know. What I do know is that the kind of set up, or that kind of affair we saw in the movie really does exist.

Most of us are waiting for the right person. The one. Someone who will complete us. And there are some who can't just settle waiting, that they even go out looking for that one person. But what if that someone, that one person who can make you happy for the rest of your life, isn't someone you expected him/her to be? And what if that person is someone you can't have, someone you know you shouldn't love. But what if you know that if you can't have that someone, you'll never be completely happy or just be happy at all? These are the thoughts I've been thinking after watching the film.

This movie breaks my heart to the level I couldn't take any longer. Sad. Heartbreaking. Imagine the feeling of wanting to see, hold and kiss someone who isn't there any longer; who will never be there. Forever. And the saddest part is the realization that you are meant to love that someone until the very last beat of your heart.

I don't feel good right now. I need some re-focusing done. Help, anyone?